a peek into my life: snippets of joy

My precious is unwell today.

She had a bad cough with phlegm two weeks ago. Now that the phelgm has cleared, the cough still remains. Last night, she was coughing so badly until she couldn’t sleep properly. The medicine she had taken for two weeks was not effective.

This evening, she did not seem energetic as usual. She was lying on her bed and her eyes were closed. She even gave her dinner and milk a miss. My fear was confirmed when I touched her forehead.

Before we headed to the clinic, I asked her if she can walk, and she said yes.

This time round, the doctor has prescribed 4 types of syrup. I was so worried she might not cooperate with me, so I bought her pack of gummies on the way home.

Whenever she has a mucousy cough or sore throat, the fever never fails to comes along. It’s like a cycle bound to happen every few months. I was even thinking on ways to improve her immune system.  That day, while discussing with her principle on the immunity issue, I was also introduced to raw honey. Erm…honey? something which I never thought of. What’s more the raw part striked me as uncooked stuff which I wasn’t keen on initially. 

But I decided to give a try after much thought. Hopefully it works. 

Zann is resting at home today. 

This morning, she woke up early than usual. I didn’t thought anything unusual until my hand brushed against her body. It was so hot. It was then that I realised she is having a fever.

I hardly caught any sleep.
Keeping myself awake, sponging every 2 hours,
feeding panamol every 4 hours.

7am

I finally concussed.

915am

I called back office to take a day’s leave.

1000am

Her temperature shot up to 39.5C.

I brought her back to the clinic.
Doctor Sim told me it usually take 2-3days
for young children to recover from fever.

Anyway, I wasn’t listening to his theory-preaching.

I wanted a stronger prescription which could control the fever better.

I went home with nurofen, the orange suspension.

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5pm

The temperature has subsided.
But I am still monitoring.

100pm

I was preparing to go for my lunch until I received a call from childcare.
I was informed that Zann was having a high fever of 38.5C.

Lucky Pam was around.
I told her I need to take urgent half day off
to fetch Zann back from childcare.

Along the way back in the cab, I saw the ferris wheel. And I took a snap.

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Zann was asleep when I reached the centre.
I touched to feel her hot forehead.

While packing her stuffs, I saw the water level
in her bottle was still the same when I prepared in the morning.

I asked Teacher Jamilah,
“She didn’t drink any water from morning till now?”

Her reply to me was Zann didn’t want to drink.

I was totally unhappy.
But before I wanted to ask more, I decided not to stay any longer.

I just want to bring Zann home soonest.

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After feeding her the Calpol from the last prescription,
Zann went back to slumberland.

It wasn’t until 4pm, she woke up with a cry.

Her temperature shot up to 39C.

I keep sponging her with cold water.
That was my only way to bring the temperature down.

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700pm

I was at the pediatrician.

She was given voren supp bullet forms, to insert at her anus.
I was told to feed her panamol every 4 hours.

Zann’s recovering. *Grins*

Flu 100% gone…but left 40% ulcer…

The weather’s these days seems to be so unpredicable.
But it’s definitely making me sweat like a cow,

even if it’s indoor. It can be super-duper hot and stuffy lor.
even Zann’s sweating like a cow too..hahaha

Lately, Zann has refused to take her meal.
She does not like to take her lunch and dinner properly.
She will eat the first few mouthfuls until she does not want to,
she will spit it all out and turn her head away
from me with the mouth closed.
Lucky thing is she still wants her milk.

Initially, I couldn’t figure out the reason.
I thought my cooking sucks..or maybe it is

Last night I brought her to see doctor.
I told Doc that she was drooling alot these days..
It was then I finally saw it.

Zann has a huge ulcer in the gum near her molar.
No wonder she refused to take her meals.
And I actually missed this part. How careless I am

Now my girl is sick. She has flu and cough and and that painful ulcer.
When I applied the ulcer cream, she started to wail.
That’s a bitter cry. Sad. It’s making me sadder.

Darling, mummy hopes to see u recover soon.

Zann has been having running nose since the trip. Yesterday night I thought she has recovered, so I stopped giving her the medicine. This morning, the mucus and sneeze returned! Worse, I’m sick and my throat is burning. It hurts even when I swallow my saliva. Hopefully the anti-inflammation pills will heal my terribly painful throat. I am having fever too now. Hot and cold, up and down. I am going to see a doc tonight if doesnt get better. Wondering if it’s contagious. Meaning that I cant kiss my girl like I often do. *Sob*

The weekend has really taken a toil on me especially nursing Zann’s health back. And yes now she is well except for the cough. Back to her bubbly self as usual. Taking care her is very similar to taking care of an invalid. You have to be extra watchful of the diet, monitor her poop and temperature and at the same time, the titanic struggle to make her take the medicine. And it doesn’t help that I’m forgetful at times- yes. To remind myself I have wrote down to record her medicine feeding.

Becoming a mother is not just about endless chores. It changes the whole person in me. It’s a sense of responsibility that I accept with gladness as well as fear. Sometimes, that heavy sense of responsibility can bring me to tears or even, to the brink of sanity. Perhaps depression. I feel very stressed, like I’m not good enough as a mother to take care of her well. Many times, I have to tell myself to handle her with both head and heart in place.

Yesterday. We decided to go for a spin with Zann. To make her feel better instead of cooping up at hm.

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