i thought i have been feeling this way
due to an avalanche of problems I faced…
一个机会的到来，但最后还是选择了放弃。
静待另一个好机会能够再次到来。
希望是这样。
Archive for the ‘Rants’ Category
烦…
August 1, 2007Welcome home …
July 27, 2007So today was my first day at my new job and and and..
AL is coming back home from Sydney as well.
So, how’s first half day at work, Cendrine?
Disappointment and culture shock.
And yes, I am having second thought now.
Tired. After fetching Zann from Jenny, the part time nanny,
the second half day was spent in the childcare. It was only on trial anyway.
I was kind of disappointed with the teacher there.
Zann was slapped by another older girl..over the toys.
I saw and told the small girl, that she shouldn’t do that,
and toys must be shared!
And the teacher merely said,
” Come come, cannot beat mei mei, must sayang mei mei ok. “
Wah..so that sharing part wasn’t mentioned at all lei !
I am at a loss now. Maybe I should change the childcare centre ?
Heh…We never seem to have enough of KK.
AL came back from Sydney today and
bought another two boxes of KK donuts.
2 dozens, to be precise..haha
This time we really have an overdose of donuts !!!
What can i say ..they are so awesomely divine that
I finished half a box already.
Think these KK will last my donut cravings.
i *heart* Krispy Kreme…
Obviously, i cannot resist them.
Hmm…I must remember to exercise….kekeke
er hur..can i make it ?
July 24, 2007I wanted to improve our life quality.
Yet I am feeling ambivalent
about a decision I made.
Have you been through how I felt?
I’m so insecure about myself sometimes
Just wondering what I want out of myself and my life?
Though the gap of not working isn’t long,
But somehow I still lose confidence. Can I cope?
I will miss Zann. Will think if she’s in good care.
Will miss her daily routines.
Will miss the times I have with her.
Any insecure folks out there ?
Maybe we can all hang out together.
Misery seeks company. Heh.
我的巧克力蛋糕
June 28, 2007I want to eat. EAT chocolate cake !
Yeah..I love chocolate. It’s supposed to be my
‘feel’ good therapy …我要快乐…
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Have you eva been judged or ridiculed by?
Have you eva been ‘chased’ to answer questions?
Were you judged from what u have written inside the forum?
Is that considered provoking or concerning?
Yes. In my natural ‘form’, I’m a reactive person
and sensitive to words. Words which carried sarcasm in the lines.
Sometimes, there is power in words which can hurt.
So, tell me if you have been there before.
How would you feel if you are me ?
To feel contented..or ??
June 22, 2007I was resting on my bed.
and Zann started to climb and sat on top of me.
Her bib was drenched with drool, and and and
my face was stained with her drool too…*Grin*
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Disappointment, who hates it ?
Me. I am one.
Sometimes I don’t wish to fall victim to circumstances.
Yet my decision was triggered. To go or not to go…?
I could almost kill them.
If I go, will it makes me a happier person.
If I don’t go, I don’t know where can my temper lead to?
Anyhow, Zann’s will be with me throughout the journey.
Protected: I is nabeh-ly pissed…
June 16, 2007It’s not a beautiful day…
June 11, 2007
The sad person talks.
Me.
By coincidence, my interview always fall on the MON…
and and and I always fail to succeed..*stares forlornly*
Today is the 3rd time.
I felt so con-ned to go down.
They did not introduced themselves…
First thing first was shooting me with questions
They asked me how much I expected.
They asked me why am I not working.
though all these were written on my resume.
Why can’t they read it before asking me?
Alright, so what’s wrong for a SAHM to decide returning to workforce?
The frown appeared on their face… and I knew it.
I am not selected.
Emo Rant
June 6, 2007I have a mantra and that is be happy.
yet i don’t have a true sense about my state of happiness.
Some things in life are really about guts.
Having the guts to go ahead. OR
Having the guts to back out.
Either way. it’s never easy.
It’s always a struggle.
Carbo Rants
May 14, 2007
The fats percentage in my body increased these days.
Too much unwanted carbo…how to rid them off ???
I have been binging on too much pastries.
First is my birthday cake.
Next is the raisin bread pudding I baked.
It’s becoming a phobia liao..
and so I decided to swear off pastries for good temporary…
The above shows my 4th slice from my birthday cake.
And half of what’s left is still resting inside the fridge!
I have enough sugar, carbo or whatever u name it…
P.s. Right now I am feeling #&%%^^%#&.
It’s my screwed up hormones from the stoopid painful PMS.
Anyway, just ignore me…
Rantatty Rant
May 4, 2007SNEEZE.
And I keep sneezing today!
Is that a sign of falling sick soon…or
…..somebody’s cursing or missing me ?
I cant fall sick. Zann has no one to take care of …
I hate being lethargy all day. I am feeing blardy melancholic now can …
How i wish i have civil servant friends
who can help me get the special rates…
somebody? anybody…?
That’s 50% off published rates!
