a peek into my life: snippets of joy

Bad mood.

I had trouble sleeping last night.
Ended up sleeping at 400am.
And waking up at 730am in the morning
was something which I hated.

In total, I have slept for only three hours plus…

I did not go back office today.
I took unpaid leave to take care of Zann.
The lack of sleep and the uncooperative Zann making
it even harder to maintain my sanity.

Plus mum’s unbearable nonsense.

It’s not an anticipated Friday la.

Everything just not going my way.

Sian.

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My frustration therapy.

Two reasons to bake this raisin pound cake.

First, clearing the raisins since they have been lying
around the kitchen for so looooong.

Second, I love to bake, what else ?

I wrote in to apply for administrator
but but, I was offered for the position of producer
for a MNC advertising agency.
Cos of my relevant experience in creative industry.
But that was ages ago.

They called me three times.
Despite me telling them that
I dun wish to take up the offer.

WHY I CANT GET A SIMPLE ADMIN 9-6 job ???
Seriously, I dun wish to go back
to advertising industry anymore.
I am prepared to give up this career
path for Zann’s sake le.
The long hours and the never ending deadlines…
Like that surecan never fetch Zann home
on time from childcare.

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After came back home from childcare,
she concussed on her bed.
Didnt even want to drink water, and her milk.

The teacher forgot to give Zann the bread toast
I prepared in the morning.

Me very disappointed with them la.
Might as well I take care better.

I finally got the Desitin Cream.
This brand is good for nappy rashes.
I would recommend mummies this brand.

Zann’s having rashes again.
cos the teacher left her in the soiled diaper
from 10am to 1230pm.

Yea I meant heavily soiled with POO lor.
Some more got the cheek to smile and informed me. Geez…

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Saw this tote bag rather cute when I walked home.
At 10 bucks, I couldnt resist to spend again.

But me now regretted. Actually I dun really need it. Sigh

This time, not fever liao.
This time is flu and sorethroat.

I think I didn’t drink enough water lately.
I think I didn’t have sleep early the past few nights.
Last night ate hell lots of medicine and went to sleep early.
Duno why I couldnt sleep properly.

MY THROAT’S BURNING LIKE FIRE

On and off I keep waking up in the middle of night
to drink water and go toilet. .no joke la…v tiring de lei….

Sibei sian one la. I CANT SLEEP PROPERLY.

I hate to kena sore throat.
Duno why it takes forever so long to heal…
Is it because I used to be a heavy smoker last time ?

sigh…my antibiotics useless one…finishing soon
and not taking effect. ARRRRGH
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Morning woke up with a heavy headache.
Worse, Zann was going to be late for childcare.
I dragged myself to boil water and prepare cereal for her.
Luckily the rain has stopped.

Just because you thought Zann was at childcare hur…
then I ll have enough rest at home ? WRONG !
I have to do laundry, sweep the floor, and cook Zann’s lunch.
Yea. For Zann. why?
Cos there were times that she did not eat in the
childcare lor. So come home with hungry tummy. sigh.
Half a day passes so fast de….

Does anyone has to stuggle with sanity being a SAHM?

Despression sinks, temper shoots up, voices raised, sensitivity aroused.
from cooking, laundry, housechores, running after a toddler blah blah blah
especially when one has to do everything with no helper.

It’s tiring.

230pm

I made an appointment with my hairstylist.
Finally has a day for myself. Half a day precisely.
Just to have my hair cut. Trimmed and treatment.

Mum’s off day and my interview appointment.
Everything fell on the same day.
Just nice and easier to arrange.
Plus it was my ‘golden’ chance not to stay at home.

I was late for my interview.
Worse, I even yawned and my brain couldn’t think right.
Not a good sign.

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I walked over to Central after my interview.
And I passed by this visually-enticing cafe.

The menu viewed from the glass window.
All cupcakes at $2.50 after 5pm.

The menu comes in passport-sized booklets. Cute!

Behind the white counter, churned out very simple
and catchy cupcakes and the lemony cheesecakes.
They were too pretty to eat, yet I just had to have one.

It was 8pm. My tummy was growling…haha
And so I ordered a strawberry cupcake for a try.

Needless to say, I walked out as a happy, satisfied customer.

Paisley & Cream Café
#01-09/10, Central@Clarke Quay
Tel: 6543-7962

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so
he asked his little daughter,

“Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that
you don’t fall into the river.”

The little girl said, “No, Dad. You hold my hand.”

“What’s the difference?” Asked the puzzled father.

“There’s a big difference,” replied the little girl.

“If I hold your hand and something happens to me,
chances are that I may let your hand go.

But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter
what happens, you will never let my hand go.”

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind,
but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom
you love rather than expecting them to hold yours….

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How do we reach a level of trust without resentment ?
When would there be that coveted level of understanding ?

I hate to guess. Maybe some things, are better left unknown.

Tired. I just want to turn a blind eye.

About that milk triangle.
Has anyone came across ?

I never sees it anymore except the rectangular type…

Bring me back to those days in primary school when I have
to pay the teacher for the whole week supply.
Yea…and I never missed it.
That triangle thing was always on my table without fail.

One thing for sure now, Zann doesn’t like to
drink those full cream milk…

Even the chocolate flavour was rejected by her.
She only insist on RIBENA …

Lying on the bed, staring forlornly at the ceiling.

When can I have a place of my own ?
A place where I can call HOME.

There isn’t any simple pleasure in my life.
I wish there is some contentment
I can wallow in.

I really loathe those pests !
Everything inside that fugly house !

Sigh.

I feeling myself slipping away.

My fever is coming back again. Sux.